My name is Ma Xiangjin, 33 years old, born in Cuijiayu Town of Yishui County,Shandong province. I used to be a Falun Gong practitioner. I believed Li Hongzhi`s "protection of Boddha Dharma" and "consummation". To show the power of Falun Gong, I jumped down from a building and broke my right leg, and I became permanently crippled and lost my capacity of labor.
Whenever I walk on the street with a limp and see the unusual gaze of people, I feel sad, not for my disability, but for what made me a cripple. As a normal people, I could simply believe the lies of Li Hongzhi, pursue an illusory paradise,and I have become a laughingstock for the people, left pain to my family and left myself a lifelong regret. However, with the spiritual control of Li Hongzhi, some people were still on the wrong way that I had taken before, the result would be very terrible. In order to make them know the truth and avoid the serious consequences, I write down my own experiences, hoping that my painful lesson can wake up their obsessed heart!
Before I practised Falun Gong I was a strong and hard working young man. However, after that, I changed!
I was working in Qingdao in 1998. As I was fond of Qigong, someone introduced "Falun Gong" which was under the flag of Qigong to me. After I read the book "Zhuan Falun", I found mysterious the words of "Dharma Body"，"Falun" and "sending people to heaven". Other practitioners told me: "Falun Gong is really a profound Qigong." And then I participated in several "teaching the Fa" sessions. I listened to and somrtimes doubted the supernatural performances of "Super Qigong". Gradually, under the psychological hint, it seemed that I had some feelings. Especially I fell off from the second floor accidentally but did not hurt，which strengthened the resolution to practise "Falun Gong". At that time I did not think it was the sheer luck by chance, which was when I fell off from the second floor，I landed on the sands. But I thought it was the protection of Li Hongzhi's "Dharma Body". Because Li Hongzhi said: "If you really practise, I will protect you up to consummation". Therefore, I thought I was protected, which left a potential crisis for my jumping down from the fourth floor later!
Hereafter, I was determined to catch the best practice chance. I was unwilling to work again and care about the affairs of the society. I was often late for work and sometomes forgot to work.I did not take care about my parents and I even ignored my girl friend.
When the government banned Falun Gong, I was very discontented and I thought that the government treated Falun Gong unequally. Because Li Hongzhi said in "China Falun Gong (Revised Edition)": "The theory of Falun Gong points to people’s heart directly…It teaches people to do good and accumulate merit…reduces the karma. My aim is to put those people on lower level to a high level and make a healthy way for Qigong’s development." Therefore, I thought he did a boundless beneficence. I decided to ask for an explanation for Li Hongzhi and his Falun Gong.
In order to gather more people to ask for an explanation in Beijing, I gave up my job of construction in Qingdao on July 23, 1999. I went here and there, even I did not return home. I got on the train to Beijing with other practitioners. Upon our arrival in Beijing, when we were ready to carry out banners at Tiananmen Square, we were caught by the police sent back to the local detention house for disobeying the law.
In order to give me a chance to correct my mistake, the local government helped me in a consultation center. However, I closed my ears to their advice and escaped when they were having rest. I felt the "power" of my master and my own merit at the moment!
From then on, I went to other cities and provinces to contact local Falun Gong organizations. With their help, I lived incognito for more than half of a year. And then I was detained for sending out propaganda material of Falun Gong. During my time in house of detention, my girl friend wrote to me with the identity of fiancée. She handed in the security deposit for me, hoping that I could change my views. However, I was obsessed by the words of Li Hongzhi: "If this affection is not severed, you will be unable to practice cultivation." Therefore, I didn’t thank for her goodwill, but thought that she interfered with my practice.
When I was sent to the psychological help centre, I saw my girl friend waiting at the gate. To be honest, I was very moved, but when I thought about "the time of consummation, I could get whatever I want. Not only the family, but the earth would be held in your hand". Therefore, I restrained the emotion and told my girl fiend: "I can not lose the best chance!" I comforted myself, thinking I would "make her happy in the future." In this way, Falun Gong destroyed my first love!
When I was talking with the former Falun Gong disciples who had been changed to normal people, I still did my best to escape, but when I heard their comment from the depths of their heart, I feared that the "evil" would exploit the loopholes, which would made me lose the best chance to achieve "consummation". Therefore, I encouraged myself with the words of Li Hongzhi. Suddenly I remembered his words when I stood on the balcony of the fourth floor of the consultation center: "My Dharma Body will protect my disciples to achieve consummation; no matter he is detained or dead, all of them have achieved consummation." I recalled the last time I fell from the second floor in my early time of practise. I felt that I was in a high level of practise, if I jumped, I should be safe! Even I really died, that was a consummation! In this way, I left a note, the content was that I wanted to let common people see our power, even if I died; it was a consummation and did not relate to the helpers. To be honest, the helpers treated me very well, my original idea did not want to put them in trouble, I thought I would not bring trouble at that time, because I believed the power of Falun Gong firmly, then I jumped down from the fourth floor without any fear. Thanks to the cotton quilt hanging in front of the building that I had touched when I fell down, otherwise I would die immediately! Even so, my body, which protected by the Dharma Body of Li Hongzhi, was badly mutilated!
When my family and people of consultation center took me to the hospital, I had already lost consciousness. The doctor told me when I woke up: "Your viscera are safe after the operation, but you leg is difficult to recover."
As I touched my right leg of comminuted fracture, I did not feel sad at all. Because I thought it was the "ordeal" of my master. The human body is only a "skin-bag". Therefore, I continued looking forward to attain the "consummation" which led by my merciful master.
Because I believed in "eliminating karma" and did not cooperate with medical treatment. I was still very weak after several months. My right leg could not stand. I missed the best opportunity of recovering, which caused a permanent disability.
Till one day, an ex-practitioner who had been transformed asked me: "If Li Hongzhi really has theotechnic power, why couldn’t he help you avoad crippling? And why he gave people a subject for ridicule?" His words made me painful in my heart. From then on, I began to question myself repeatedly on the sick bed. Finally I understood in front of the fact: It was Li Hongzhi who changed a strong young man to a disabled person! If not for the local government helping and saving my life in time, I had become a sacrifice of his "consummation"!
Now I have already crossed my thirty years of age, with the help of kind people of the society, I can walk alone and support the family through my own work. But what the heresy Falun Gong left me is lame walking posture and taking no heavy physical labor,that lead an ineffable pathos in my happy life. Today I unveil the scar of my wound in the hope that the lesson written in blood can alarm the addicts: Keep away from heresy, love labor, live steadily!
(Facts.org.cn, August 11, 2008 )
