My name is Zhao Xiaoping. I'm a farmer in Baixiang County, Xingtai City, Hebei Province. Now, when I recall the course of practicing Falun Gong, I find my life during those three years miserable and tortuous.

Wishing to improve health and follow the good, I started to practice Falun Gong in 1998. Soon after that, I was totally obsessed by the so-called "Truthfulness, Compassion and Tolerance" preached by Li Hongzhi. And my thinking and doing changed radically. I hung the portraits of Li Hongzhi all over the walls, practiced Falun Gong all day long and stopped talking to others. At that time, I regarded Dafa study as the first priority in my life. Once I saw my family members working industriously, I became quite annoyed. I thought if we practiced Falun Gong, we could go to "Paradise" and gain "Consummation" easily and there was no need to work hard. I thought it was my "glorious" responsibility to persuade them into practicing Falun Gong and help them to get out of "the abyss of misery." At first, I tried to persuade my son to set an example for others. I went to his home everyday and asked him to practice Falun Gong with me. However, my daughter-in-law was strongly against me, and she said I had already become insane because of Falun Gong and she didn't want his husband to suffer the same. I was furious, and then I started a rumor in my village that my daughter-in-law was a "devil" that prevented my son from reaching Consummation. For this, my daughter-in-law hated me intensely. Each time I went to my son's house, she would stand in the way with a kitchen knife in her hand threatening to die together with me if I dared to get in. When I found it's impossible to persuade my son, I began to instruct my sister who used to practice Falun Gong. I went to her home at intervals and persuaded her into practicing Falun Gong again. Knowing this, my nephew drove me away from his home, condemned me as "an evil spirit" and forbad me to go to his home forever. After these failures, I was more assured with my responsibility to "save all sentient beings." Whenever I dropped around relatives and neighbors, I would instruct them to practice Falun Gong, while they would turn away from me as avoiding the plague. Finally, I was raging and firmly believed in the words of Master Li Hongzhi: they are just ordinary people, the devils interfering with Fa-rectification. Only by cutting off my relations with them and letting go of attachment could I "get into a higher level" and gain Consummation. As a result, I purposely disconnected communications with all my children, relatives and neighbors and made myself utterly isolated from the outside world.

Later on, with the help of government instructors, I gradually realizes my absurdness. It is my perverse belief that made me isolated from my children; my selfishness made me loss all my relatives; and my striving for Consummation drove neighbors away from me. They are not devils; it is Falun Gong that made me a devil. To my gratitude, ever since I have stopped believing in Falun Gong, my relatives and friends come back to me and my life is full of laughter and happiness again.

(Kaiwind.com, April 14, 2008)