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Paradise is in the world

2009-03-12 Author:By: Li Bingxiu

My name is Li Bingxiu. I live in a remote village, east of Sichuan Province. I am fifty-five years old and have received only an elementary education. When Falun Gong spread like plague all over China at the beginning of 1990s, I was deceived by Li Hongzhi who put on the mask of "Truthfulness, Compassion and Tolerance," and became a victim of the cult. My heart still flutters with fear when I recall that period of obsession, haze and fanaticism.

The simple and laborious village life fostered me an industrious character. I did household chores and made dresses in slack season for fellow villagers by using my simple sartorial appliance. My simple and peaceful life ended on a day of September 1997 when I heard about Falun Gong accidentally. I was fascinated with the lies "no need to take pills when getting ill" and "to become immortal," especially resonated with the beautiful saying of "Truthfulness, Compassion and Tolerance" in Zhuan Falun. I felt as if my soul has been purified by it and my desire expanded unlimitedly. I even hoped to become a god or Buddha. I accepted Falun Gong without consideration and convinced "it is the most profound, intricate and extraordinary science among all the theories in the world."

Since then, my life was full of ups and downs. At the beginning, I practiced Falun Gong in my room now and then; later, I became frenetic and practiced it infatuatedly day and night. Under my influence, some fellow villagers of poor health came to join me. I unconsciously became a "instructor." The euphoria and happiness I gained in teaching the Fa further tickled my vanity, and I printed Falun Gong leaflets and books used the hard-earned money of my family. Taking no account of my relatives’ opposition and my friends’ dissuasion, and even ignoring the fact that my husband left me because of my absurdity, I totally dropped my business and farm work in order to concentrate on my "Cultivation." As a result, I deviated from the normal life and completely became a spokesperson of Falun Gong and its heresies. At that time, I seemed to live in a dream. Being instigated by other Falun Gong followers, I went to Beijing twice to "appeal to the higher authorities," to clarify the so-called "truth," to protect and rectify the Fa and even took part in illegal activities such as carrying banners on Tiananmen Square and stirring up troubles...

When the government banned Falun Gong in July 1999, I was confused intensely. In fact, I was afraid of the Master Li Hongzhi at that time. I believed he was a "Deity" and "omnipotent"; people who betrayed him could not reach "Consummation" and would be thrown into hells. The thoughts made me thrilling. Fortunately, the timely and patient instruction of our local government woke me up from the nightmare. Actually, I was shocked by those who had already shaken off the spiritual shackles of Falun Gong. Their feelings, their behaviors, and above all their sufferings made me suddenly feel refreshed. Why they had no been retaliated by the Master? Why they had not been destroyed body and soul? And all of them looked safe and sound, much happier than I expected... "Seeing is believing," I finally realized that I was fooled by Li Hongzhi and his Falun Gong. Li Hongzhi was a despicable liar. Under the spiritual control of his evil doctrine, Falun Gong followers harm their families, oppose the government, violate social regulations and laws and imperil social stability. All in all, Falun Gong is a cult through and though, it violates human morality and goes against human conscience.

Deep in regret, I compared the absurd behaviors of the Falun Gong followers with the instruction and help of the government, our destructive activities with the tolerance of normal people. Then I deeply realized we are the most selfish, the most hypocritical and the worst vermin of our society. Our behaviors are indeed impenetrable and harmful. Moreover, we threw our lots to Li Hongzhi and Falun Gong body and soul, and felt honorable and satisfied, which is extremely stupid. Awakened from the nightmare, I found the "Truthfulness, Compassion and Tolerance" preached by Li Hongzhi is definitely a lie, while I had already paid a high price for such a fabrication. When I got out of the "abyss," my mind became clearer, and my abnormal thoughts and behaviors have been rectified.

I realized my errors and mend my ways, which has moved my 80-year-old mother to weep. And my husband came back to me again. I promise them I will strive to make our family warmer, richer and more harmonious.

Recalling the past, I firmly believe that Paradise is in the world!

(Kaiwind.com, April 9, 2009)

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