What a great role a mother play. She gives us precious life and is our first enlightening teacher. However, when I was eleven years old, my beloved and kind mother drew me into the abyss of the Falun Gong cult. Being deceived by the evil cult, my mother thought she should draw me into the cult to bring the best to me. She wanted to take my maternal grandmother and me to "ascend to heaven" and "reach consummation" together! However, 23 years later, I found that none of those who got obsessed with Falun Gong had ever “reached consummation.” Instead, they embarked on a road of no return which brought them a lifetime of regret.
My mother got addicted to Falun Gong and drew me into the evil cult
My family lives in the rural area of Meizhou, Guangdong Province. My mother was a kind-hearted woman. She had been in poor health due to her long-term hard labor in the fields. When I was in primary school, my mother practiced many kinds of qigong. Later, she took up Falun Gong and practiced it at dawn every morning and meditated before going to bed every night. In addition to practicing, she had to read the scriptures of Falun Gong for a long time. Besides, she had to read those scriptures together with her fellow practitioners and exchange experiences with them.
One day during the summer vacation in 1997, one of my aunts who had “studied the Fa" at my home told my mother that Master Li Hongzhi had set up a Falun Gong youth class in Guizhou. She advised my mother to guide me to practice Falun Gong and "reach consummation" together with her. Therefore, my mother and maternal grandmother asked me immediately to put aside my summer homework to learn and practice Falun Gong with them. Gradually, I began to believe that Li Hongzhi was a Buddha from heaven, that the world was about to be destroyed, and that only by practicing Falun Gong could people be saved.
I spent all my spare time on Falun Gong and neglected my studies
From then on, I was perceived as a different person by my classmates in primary school. My classmates were all full of aspirations and expectations for the future. Some dreamed of becoming airplane pilots, while others wanted to be bosses. However, I immersed myself in the heresies of Falun Gong, feeling that my classmates were too naïve. The earth was about to be destroyed, but only Master Li Hongzhi could dominate the fate of all things in the world. Therefore, when the earth was destroyed, my classmates would not be saved, but I could definitely "reach consummation” as a disciple of Li Hongzhi. So, I tried to restrain myself and let go of all my "attachments" throughout my teenage years, with no need for entertainment. My extracurricular time was all spent in participating in Falun Gong activities, such as “spreading the Fa.” Thus, while my classmates were studying hard to gain rich knowledge, I was reading Zhuan Falun diligently and trying to improve my "level."
When the State banned Falun Gong according to law in July 1999, my mother and I stubbornly believed that the State was wrong in doing so. Usually, we didn’t watch TV news, but only read the "scriptures" and messages of Falun Gong. After Falun Gong was outlawed, we didn’t dare to practice it in public, so we practiced it at home. Occasionally, we went to hand out Falun Gong leaflets and CDs outside under the influence of Li Hongzhi's scriptures.
While in high school, all my classmates were studying hard to be admitted into their ideal universities. However, I spent my time and energy "clarifying the truth" and advocating the so-called “three quits”(quit the CCP, League, and the Young Pioneer) to gain the approval of my higher-level “brothers and sisters spreading the Fa.” I expanded the number of disciples “studying the Fa” by putting up flyers and smeared the State and the government through various means. After graduation from high school, I was admitted to a local third-rate college.
I was isolated from the outside world under the mind control of Falun Gong
In a world where I was cut off from the outside world by Falun Gong, I thought that the GDP data released by the State and the number of people living in poverty were false. I also thought that Chinese people were living in a world of lies and that only those who could break through the Internet blockade and read foreign media as Falun Gong practitioners did would know the truth. There are various contents on the website of Falun Gong, but they always blame bad things on the Chinese government and point the finger at the Communist Party in the end. As a Dafa disciple addicted to Falun Gong and worshipping Li Hongzhi, I believed in anything posted on the website without any doubt. Having been influenced by it for a long time, I always talked about the “dark side” of our country whenever possible by citing false information from Falun Gong-related websites. So I became a cat’s paw of the Falun Gong cult, harming both the State and society.
I gave up marriage in order not to be trapped by family affection
After graduating from college, I followed the teachings of “Master" Li Hongzhi strictly in choosing my career and dealing with people. When I found a job I like or met a boy I love, I would give up for fear that I might affect the reputation of Dafa if I violated those teachings. I firmly believed that I would finish the "Fa-rectification" and “reach consummation" sooner or later, so why should I waste my time and energy thinking about love and marriage? No! I didn't need them. I hated those "ordinary people" around me who persuaded me to quit Falun Gong, so I always argued and debated with them. As a result, I frequently got into disagreements and frosty relationships with those who persuaded me with good intentions. Eventually, I became a completely isolated person.
My mother was killed for being obsessed with "karma elimination"
My mother was a hepatitis patient, but after becoming a Falun Gong practitioner in 1997, she had been obsessed with "eliminating karma" and never gone to hospital for a checkup or treatment. My father had been strongly opposed to us practicing Falun Gong, but we were too addicted to the evil cult to listen to his persuasion and thought he was too cowardly. I repeatedly threatened my father by saying, "Stop slandering Dafa, or you’ll suffer from it!" My father's persuasion always ended in failure, leaving us parting in discord.
In 2006, my father noticed that my mother's health was getting worse and worse. She wore a sallow face and kept suffering from abdominal distension, so we sent her forcibly to go to hospital for a checkup. The diagnosis showed that she had developed from hepatitis to hepatic ascites. The doctor advised her to be hospitalized, but she refused and strongly demanded to go home. After returning home, she became more active in practicing gong and eliminating karma. We did the following things as Li Hongzhi told us: reading large sections of Li Hongzhi’s book every day with his portrait in hand, and inviting fellow practitioners to join us for the so-called "assisted recitation." In 2008, my father couldn't stand it anymore and forcibly sent my mother to the hospital again, but her liver ascites had evolved into liver cancer by then and the doctor said there was no way to save her anymore. A few months later, my mother, who was just in her early 50s, was gone from us never to return.
I was greatly shocked by my mother's untimely death. Was this “dual cultivation of nature and longevity” or “consummation?” My father held back his tears and once again persuaded me by saying, "Think about the past twenty years when you have been obsessed with Falun Gong. You have got no good schooling, no social experience, no social skills, no love, no friends, and now, no mother ..."
I recalled the past with pangs in my heart. With the help of anti-evil-cult volunteers, I finally realized the nature of Falun Gong as an evil cult. But I had already missed the best years of my life. Now, our country is getting rich and strong, the society is making progress, and the lives of people around me are getting better than before. However, I have accomplished nothing at the age of 30 when a person should be independent. Whenever I think about it, I feel more pain than regret in my heart.
