My name is Cheng Guoying. I began to practice Falun Gong in 1996. Since then, I sank deeper and deeper. I read books, listened tapes and practiced teachings of Falun Gong time after time. Falun Gong became the theme in my life. The Falun Gong charts and image of Li Hongzhi hung in my home everywhere. I believed his heresy firmly. In order to study Falun Gong, I had cut off the relations with my relatives and workmates; in order to immortalize myself, I walked from Hulu Island in Northeast China down to Guangdong in South China with begging for six months. In order to be consummation early, my master told me to "immediate burning" in my dream, I almost burnt myself to death.
Sever the family
Li Hongzhi said: to be consummation, one must cut off flesh and blood, deviate from kindred human relation and give up the sentiment and friendship, and then one can finally get the consummation. In the winter of 1996, I infatuated Falun Gong deeply, I became in a trance like every day. One day I dreamed of the master Li Hongzhi, who said if I wanted to be consummation, I should renounce with my family first. Afterwards, I began to renounce with my family according to Li Hongzhi's order in the dream.
First of all, I renounced with my wife. One day, I packed the luggage, planning to leave the wife for many years of life and move out of home and live outside. As soon as my wife saw my decision to leave, she kneeled on the ground and held my leg to entreat piteously, "For the sake of our many years life, please give up practicing Falun Gong and live with me." Looking at her wan and languishing face in order to make a living, my heart melted and failed to leave. Again, I had also got the luggage ready and just took the door, but I was stopped at the door by my son. My son begged me not to leave this home with the shedding tears, looking at his sad look, I failed to leave again. The third time, I lelt home stealthily in the dead of night.
Secondly, I renounced with my son and relatives. I turned a deaf ear to my son after leaving home, no matter how my son called me, I was unmoved. Even when I met with the relative on the street, I pretended not to see them. Moreover, I renounced with my workmates. In the transportation corporation, in the time that I had not practised Falun Gong, I had got along with the colleague very well ago, but as I began to practise Falun Gong, I did not work, have meals and even speak with them. The instruction on my leader was ignored. I clouded in mind everyday, just like bewitched. Unexpectedly in order to practise Falun Gong, I did not need the salary, job and friendship.
Wandering
As time went on, Falun Gong became the whole life to me. Without it, I could not even live on in a quarter. I had a dream one night again; Li Hongzhi instructed and said to me in the dream, "To be consummation, you must take the hardship that was difficult the ordinary person to bear. The hardship could help you get rid of your karma and the best way is wandering around."
According to the instruction, I set out from Hulu Island of Liaoning and walked towards the south on foot. I brought some money at the beginning, but the money was stolen in Henan province. In order to "wandering" successfully, I began to beg for food to make a living everywhere, but I begged nothing because my strong body. Sometimes I was so hungry that I robbed food with dog and took leftovers. While I left home, I only worn a suit of clothes, and the clothes were dirty and broken, the trousers were broken while I robbed food with dog. I spent the night on the straw. In Hunan, I had no food to eat for days and was too hungry to walk any longer, so I climbed forward. The trousers had been broken; I tied it on my body and continued to climb forward. I picked up some things to eat from the dustbin in the roadside later, and I continued to climb with a rod difficultly. When I reached the coastal area of Guangdong province, I jumped into the sea according to the instruction of my master, planning to swim across the sea. But because my physical power is insufficient, I lost consciousness for a moment. When I woke up, I was on a fishing boat, it was when I floated on the sea, and the kind fishermen rescued me. Later I was sent to home by the police.
"Immediate burning"
After going home, I still believed Falun Gong firmly, thinking how to attain consummation. I dreamt one night my master conferred me a name "immediate burning". After I woke up, I began to think about the word. I thought it should be a royal road to attain consummation. However, I could not understand the meaning of it. To understand the meaning clearly, I thought the words "immediate burning" everyday. I even did not sleep and eat much for 5 days, sitting there in thinking. I suddenly realized the meaning of "immediate burning" was to burn myself to "consummation", and then I would reach a world of gold and live a life like immortals. Afterwards, I planned for the "immediate burning". I bought the petrol and lighter on the first day. I looked for a good environment the next day, in case that I was stopped during the "immediate burning". When I took the petrol and lighter, going out for the "immediate burning", the police came and saved me.
For the moment I think of these things,it strikes terror into me, Falun Gong is really a heresy!
(Facts.org.cn, July 22, 2008)
