I am Wang Sugui, 56 years old and live in Shiren South Road, Chengdu City, Sichuan Province. My husband is Cheng Zhirong. Both of us as well as our son were all obsessed with Falun Gong ever.
In 1997, both my husband and I were laid off and at loose ends, so we got into a hobble economically. He always had adusky frown during that time, hoping to change our situation and give us a better life. One day, my husband ran home excitedly, holding a book of Zhuan Falun with blue cover. He told me he found a way to change the fate. He said Falun Dafa was a public Fa all over the world, that if you practiced Falun Gong, you could not only improve your health, but also "improve Gong", "go to higher level" and reach Consummation. He made Falun Gong sound miraculous. Although I was dubious of it, I accepted the theory of Falun Gong at that time.
With in-depth practice and Fa study, we became more and more obsessed with Falun Gong. We thought that we were in adversity due to "karma" and bearing hardships was "eliminating karma". When you became immortal, you could get whatever you want. Under the influence of such an idea, my husband and I indulged in the practice and Fa study, never thought of changing the situation by hard work. Our son Cheng Jin, who also practiced Falun Gong influenced by us, didn't go to school and was always thinking of the shortcut of being "immortal" through this practice. We didn't feel his such thought was wrong, but believed it was fate that our son could obtain the "Dafa" with his pabbindriya.
Our whole family practiced Falun Gong and "studied the Fa" from day to day. During this period, my husband became strange in speech and action, which I didn't take to heart. He said that he had attained "enlightenment" and could see the scene of other space. For several nights when I woke up, I found my husband standing by the window, staring out dully and mumbling to himself. Later he often told me that "I'm going to reach Consummation, the Master will pick me up soon. You and our son should lose no time in practicing." Though every day he said he would reach Consummation, his spirits were drooping. I felt something was wrong with him, but I dared not to doubt it because I was also obsessed with Falun Gong then and thought it was normal phenomenon after the practice.
At the beginning of 2006, he said he had a headache, which I said was due to "too many attachments". But he said it was an omen of "developing Gong", the Master was unlocking his supernormal abilities, which were locked in other space, and his level was already quite high. So we still practiced Falun Gong and "studied Fa" every day, expecting the day of "Fa-rectification of the human world" and Consummation. What we wait at last is the misfortune of my husband, but not Consummation.
When it was in March 2006 or so, my husband became more and more impatient, more and more strange in speech and action. He often stood by the window and didn't say a word for several days. I was worried about him, but I also believed that my husband had practiced Falun Gong for so many years, the Master also cared about him, and he wouldn't have problems.
But on May 29, 2006, my husband jumped off the top floor of our living building and died. I was shocked to see the badly mutilated body of my husband. Is this the Consummation we were trying hard to gain? My husband wrote in the suicide note that, "I end my life because of the incurable disease caused in practicing." But the conclusion of the legal medical expert is that, "Schizophrenia got seriouser to cause his jumping and death."
One year has elapsed in a flash, my son and I have got rid of Falun Gong completely. Whenever I think of my husband, I can not help asking Li Hongzhi, "Is this your so called Consummation?"
The suicide note
