Now Xu Cuihua and her disabled son depend on each other for survival
Xu Cuihua regrets deeply when thinking of the death of her husband
I’m Xu Cuihua, 75 years old now, living in Baguazhou Town, Xixia District, Nanjing City, Jiangsu Province. My husband Yao Zhizhong and I had a son after marriage. Unfortunately, our son is disabled after suffering from poliomyelitis when he was a child, and he also has got mild schizophrenia. For believing that “one practices, the whole family will benefit”, I chose to practice Falun Gong. However, it’s the beginning of family nightmare.
One day in April 1997, I passed by the civil square of the town and saw many people getting together. The preacher made an impassioned speech, which the devotees concentrated their attention on. Then I found out that they were practicing Falun Gong, what they said wee improving health and curing disease without any medicine and injection. A young man gave me a book of Zhuan Falun, asking me to read it, and also said practicing Falun Gong could not only improve health and cure disease, but also realize “Ascension in Broad Daylight”. I said I couldn’t read the book because I was illiterate. But he said it didn’t matter, I just needed to come to practicing spot for practice everyday. I braced up immediately and thought it was my savior. If it was true like Falun Gong said, then practicing could not only improve my health, but could also “bless my family”, then my son would recover. Therefore, I participated in Falun Gong and was obsessed with it gradually.
After that, I practiced Falun Gong wholeheartedly, reading Zhuan Falun everyday with a hazy notion, sitting in meditation for practicing at one o’clock in the morning and going to the square to meet my fellow practitioners at dawn. My husband and son were anxious and advised me not to practice anymore. But I had been obsessed with it completely after several months’ practice, and their dissuasion made me annoyed.
In the beginning of 1998, my husband developed symptoms such as low fever, listlessness, cough and hemoptysis. He was diagnosed with phthisis and should be hospitalized. After knowing that, our son was anxious and prepared to send my husband to hospital, with which I didn’t agree. I believed that my husband got illness due to his heavy Karma and I asked him to practice with me to eliminate Karma. I believed that only by doing this, the Master would bless him and his illness would be cured. My husband, who tried anything when in a desperate situation, practiced Falun Gong with me.
My husband often took some medicines such as rifampicin capsules, ethambutol for the illness behind my back during his early practicing time. Then after finding that, with anger I threw away all the medicines that my son bought and forced my husband to swear not taking medicine anymore. I told him as long as he listened to the Master and kept practicing, he would recover. Then my husband stopped the medicine at my insistence.
After practicing for some time, the mental state of my husband became better than before, which made us feel happy. My husband began to believe in Falun Gong’s “curative effect” of “improving health and curing disease” from then on and was busy practicing, reading Master Li’s books and watching DVDs all day long. Seeing my husband’s high spirit for practicing, I thanked Falun Gong with all my heart.
Generally, standers-by see more than gamesters. I felt my husband got better day after day, but actually his condition got worse and he became thinner and thinner. I thought it was due to his good health and it was nothing serious, as an old saying goes “the elderly had better stay thin.” Seeing this, my friends and relatives scolded me for inhumanity and regardless of my husband’s life and death. But I was unmoved by this and said these common people, who were not at the same level with me and didn’t understand Dafa, were all garbage. It didn’t make sense to communicate with them and it was hurting my husband for not allowing him to practicing Falun Gong. So my husband kept practicing and not seeing a doctor.
Chinabanned Falun Gong according to law in July 1999. However, I couldn’t understand the decision of the government and didn’t want to give up Falun Gong, so I had conflicted emotion and firmly believed that practicing Falun Gong could cure my husband and my son’s diseases. I also regarded Falun Dafa as a part of my life. So my husband and I kept practicing, studying the Fa and communicating with fellow practitioners secretly.
In the winter of 1999, my husband got a bad cough and often said he had a pain in the chest. He also had a low fever and blood-stained sputum from time to time. But I still believed it was eliminating Karma, and after the dark substance was expelled, the Karma would vanish, then my husband would turn better.
On the night of April 5, 2000, we were sitting in meditation for practicing and suddenly my husband threw himself down on the ground and spit out blood, never to stand up. Then I started to fluster and burst into loud sobs with my husband in my arms. But it was too late, my husband and I separated forever and he didn’t eliminate Karma and reach Consummation like what the Master said.
