I'm Liang Xuelin, female, 60 years old, live on Dongmen Street, Lincheng Town, Huitong County, Hunan Province, retired from Huitong County Film Corporation. In November 1998, I started to practice Falun Gong for it would help me to get rid of illness and to be healthy as they claimed. In December 2000, I was sent to the labor camp for one year on the charge of engaging in illegal activities and committing crimes in Beijing. On June 8, 2003, I engaged in illegal activities and committed crimes once again but managed to run away and had stayed away from my hometown for more than one year, becoming a professional Falun Gong practitioner.
The seven-year experience is a nightmare for me, for I have done a lot of illegal and immoral things harmful to the country, to my family, and to me as well. I used to have a happy family, but now I've got nothing but a broken marriage and a broken family. And the root of all these is because I believed in the evil theories of Li Hongzhi. Now I hate Li Hongzhi so much, I hate Falun Gong so much!
– Li Hongzhi says we should "sever emotions," so I gave up all true love and emotions in human world in order to make my cultivation go up to a higher level.
In his Zhuan Falun, Li Hongzhi said: "People just live for emotion. The affection among family members, the love between a man and woman, love for parents, feelings, friendships, doing things for friendship's sake – no matter where you go you can't get out of emotion. You want to do something, you don't want to do something, you're happy, you're unhappy, you love something, you hate something – everything in society comes completely from emotion. If you don't sever emotion, you won't be able to cultivate." In his Essentials for Further Advancement, Li Hongzhi said: "Those who are attached to affection for family will definitely be burned, entangled, and tormented by it. Pulled by the threads of affection and plagued by them throughout their lives, they will find it too late to regret at the end of their lives."
These evil theories of Li Hongzhi made me give up all the good things in the world at that time, such as emotions, friendship, and love among relatives. I didn't fulfill my duty as a wife to take care of my critically ill husband when he was hospitalized, taking his diseases as the way to "remove karma" instead. In the end, my husband was so weak that he fell to the ground from the bed and then died of cerebral haemorrhage.
Before I started to practice Falun Gong, we used to be such a happy couple and live such a happy life. My husband was the chief of a bureau and we loved each other very much. We have two sons and everyone envied us. After I started to practice Falun Gong, during the first few years, my husband cared about me very much. He talked to me about the danger of Falun Gong even if he was critically ill. But at that time, I just didn't want to listen to him. In remembering his deep love, I regret so much right now and I will never forgive myself. In a report submitted to authority on September 15, 2001, my husband wrote: "... I had cerebral haemorrhage and after I left hospital in 1999, I've got to take medicines and my health status is very bad. Meanwhile, Liang Xuelin, my wife, suffers high blood pressure too, making me very much depressed with a high mental pressure ..." From this short paragraph, I can see that my husband suffered a deteriorating health and a painful life at the same time, but I can also see his love and caring for me.
Li Hongzhi is such a devil asking me to "sever emotion" and to give up all feelings and emotions in the world, that's why I left my sick husband and our love behind to "propagate Dafa" day and night for Li Hongzhi, to "clarify truth" for Falun Gong. Now I want to tell the entire world: the theory of "severing emotion" advocated by Li Hongzhi killed my husband and I want Li Hongzhi to pay for this!
– Li Hongzhi's evil theory of "Consummation" made me abandon my happy life and two sons.
In his Zhuan Falun, Li Hongzhi said: "The ultimate goal of cultivating is to attain the Dao and reach spiritual Perfection.... Although the part that we teach among ordinary people isn't a religion, the goal of cultivation is the same: it is to achieve Unlocking, or Enlightenment, and to succeed in cultivation and achieve Perfection. That's the goal."
In order to gain "Consummation," I went out to "propagate Dafa" everyday, coming back home very late or staying outside all night sometimes. In order to gain "Consummation," I devoted wholehearted to Li Hongzhi and Falun Gong, while ignoring totally my two underage sons. For Li Hongzhi said that, when cultivators reached "Consummation," their relatives would also benefit from it.
In his Zhuan Falun, Li Hongzhi also said: "A large number of students have now achieved or are about to achieve Consummation. How solemn it is for a human being to achieve Consummation! Nothing in this world could be more wonderful, glorious, or magnificent."
Knowing that some of my fellow practitioners have gained "Consummation," but I didn't have any progress at all, I felt so anxious at that time. So I speeded up the pace of "cultivation" and "advanced cultivation." In my mind, I would like to pay any price in order to reach "Consummation" earlier, including my life. My fellow practitioners and I spend our own money to work for Falun Gong; without anyone looking after them, both of my sons stepped onto the road of breaking laws and committing crimes.
When my husband had cerebral haemorrhage in 1999, my elder son was 17 years old while the younger 7; when my husband died in 2002, the elder son was 20, still too young to know anything better; while the younger one was only 10, a critical moment of growing both physically and mentally, requiring more cares from mother in life. But at that time, I was fooled by Li Hongzhi, and the only thing in my mind was to gain "Consummation," discarding the emotions between husband and wife, between mother and son, as well as all other emotions and feelings in the world. I can still recall that, before I started to practice Falun Gong cult, both my boys were so smart and lovely, both were top students in their classes. But since I became obsessed with Falun Gong and didn't fulfill my duties as a mother, being abetted by bad guys, my two boys started to take drugs one after another. In short of money to get drug, my elder son engaged in a robbery and was sentenced to 17-year imprisonment and still serves his term right now. My younger son was almost dead due to drug overdose and was sent to the re-education station of juvenile delinquency and is still there till this day.
– I want to tell the entire world: the evil theories of Li Hongzhi and his Falun Gong destroyed my family and ruined my two promising sons.
Li Hongzhi coerced and threatened me into this; I just couldn't get away from it and got increasingly deeply involved. As early as in January 2002, during my stay in the labor camp, through psychological therapy and teachings on the dangers of cult by teachers, I had an initial recognition on the dangers of Falun Gong and promised that I would give up practicing Falun Gong. But shortly after I was released and back home, Li Hongzhi said: "Both the body and soul of those changing their mind will be gone and be destroyed completely." Being threatened by Li Hongzhi, since both my family and I had already done so much for Dafa, it would be such a waste if I stopped and ended up with "both body and soul being gone and being destroyed completely." So I started to do those illegal things together with my fellow practitioners once again, causing troubles in neighborhood areas and being caught several times. The authority had always helped and educated me kindly and patiently, and I had wanted to get rid of Falun Gong for several times. But I was so afraid that Li Hongzhi might revenge on me. Li Hongzhi said that all causing troubles to Dafa are "demons." In his Zhuan Falun, Li Hongzhi said: "In the beginning stage I took care of many demons like that...we have another ability that used to be called the Great Soul-Catching Method, and that ability is even more powerful. It can pull out a person's whole master soul, and instantly that person won't be able to move." At the thought of the miserable "ending," I was so afraid that both my families and I would get our souls removed by Li Hongzhi. I had no other choice but to continuously work for Li Hongzhi.
In June 2002, shortly after the funeral of my husband, I left home to "propagate Dafa" and to "clarify truth," starting to revenge on the society madly. In order to work for Falun Gong, I'd been a professional practitioner for more than one year, living a miserable life without sufficient food, safe place to stay, and hiding all the time. What's more pathetic was that, even if I made a small amount of money by doing part-time jobs, the first thing I thought was not to buy new clothes for the younger son, for I hadn't bought anything for him for more than seven years, but to spend it on the materials propagandizing Falun Gong. For more than seven years, being cheated by the evil theories of Li Hongzhi on "going up to a higher level and reaching Consummation by giving up all attachments of ordinary people," I'd always "sung the praises" and "clarified on the wrongs done to" Li Hongzhi and Falun Gong organization at the risk of breaking Chinese laws. To work for Falun Gong, our practitioners got nothing in turn and had to pay the bills by ourselves, some lost everything they had and even died for Li Hongzhi.
For so many years, Chinese government has never given it up on us Falun Gong practitioners who have done so many damages to this country. Instead, the government takes care of us by adopting the policies of "educating, saving, and transforming." In October 2007, I was awarded the honor of "Provincial Active Prisoners on Reform Program," which is the highest and the best "spiritual award" for me since I took a wrong road of Falun Gong a decade ago.
As for my family, my husband has gone forever, the elder son serves his term of imprisonment, and the younger one is at the reeducation station. The more I think about these, the sadder I feel, and I cry a lot. Every time I visit my two sons, I either cry with my elder son or with my younger son. Getting back home, I'm the only one left and feel so lonely. I miss my husband and my boys, at the thought of them; I just can't stop my tears from running down. At the thought of Li Hongzhi and Falun Gong, I'll grind my teeth, and the only thing I want to do is to drink the blood of Li Hongzhi and eat his flesh!
Today, I condemn Li Hongzhi with my miserable experience. And I want to tell the world loudly: Li Hongzhi is a swindler, Falun Gong is a cult!
(Kaiwind.com, July 10, 2008)
