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Deep Repentance of An Undergraduate Trapped In

2020-02-07 Source:中国反邪教网

Chen Jun was a former undergraduate from University of Science and Technology in Beijing. He told us about his painful experience from a college student to a man being obsessed with Falun Gong in the hope of keeping fit, which led to his imprisonment before finally waking up to his crime. 

My name is Chen Jun and in 1991, I passed the college entrance exam and was admitted to University of Science and Technology in Beijing. Ever since I was a child, I had been sensible and studious, and had a smooth ride from elementary school to university, with my parents rarely having to worry about me. In fact, I had always been the source of pride to my parents and a hero to children in the neighborhood.

My university life started in 1991 when I entered University of Science and Technology in Beijing. After my graduation in July 1995, I was assigned to a listed electrical company in Zhuhai, Guangdong province, where I was arranged a job in the craft department. As I had been in frail health from childhood, with no serious disease detected, I always felt that I had a weak body, and lacked physical vigor in doing things. So, at first I practiced Qigong exercise to improve my health, but to no avail. Then I turned to traditional Chinese medicine, but there wasn’t much improvement after taking the medicine for quite a while, and this made me depressed for a long time. One day, a colleague of mine called Lin Xu recommended a new kind of Gong to me, claiming that it had cured his stomach ulcer. The next day, Lin Xu handed me a book, saying "There will be no more need to take Chinese medicines if you practice this kind of Gong. You should first read this book." The book he referred to was called Zhuan Falun. I spent the whole daytime reading through the book as it happened there was nothing else for me to do that day in our unit.

I was attracted to the content of Zhuan Falun the moment I began to read it, as it included many mysterious phenomena and their explanations, which I had never heard of or been exposed to. I felt at that time that Zhuan Falun had opened up an entirely new world to me, and immediately filled my heart with great excitement. On the following morning, I said to Lin Xu, "This book is very good; please teach me how to practice Falun Gong!"

Soon, Lin Xu led me to the home of Zhou Jingjia, a female Falun Gong practitioner. There, I learned five sets of the Gong movements and started my practicing career.

In July 1999, Falun Gong was outlawed by the state, and Lin Xu was sentenced to two years' reeducation through labor for violating national laws. Thereafter, my channel to receive Falun Gong-related information was interrupted, and I fell into a nearly isolated state in practicing.

After I practiced Falun Gong for some time, I felt that it seemed to have some effect on improving my health. But where exactly did the improvement come from? I was still muddle-headed. And naturally, I attributed it to the magic of "Law Bodies (Fa-shen)" of the Master, thus unconsciously building up a kind of trust, even worship in Li Hongzhi as well as his Falun Gong. Thereby, I accepted the whole set of fallacies and heresies advocated by the cult and sank into the quagmire inch by inch without realizing it.

Being persistently addicted to Falun Gong, I have lost not only several years of my life, but also missed the opportunity time and again to turn back from the wrong path. Now, I have realized this is a lesson that I will never forget.

The real turning point for me came in late 2006 and early 2007, when I watched a TV program about the two women involved in Tiananmen Square self-immolation incident, Hao Huijun and Chen Guo, who received a second interview with a TV station. After I watched the program, the psychological line of defense I set up for self-immolation had collapsed completely. Now, the hard time was fading away, and my work and life got smoother and smoother due to my hard work.

In 2011, my son was born, a symbol of our hard-won happiness which had brought immense excitement to our whole family. I realized at this time that I was not only an individual, but also a father, husband and son with a lot of responsibilities. A man in pursuit of goodness should be one with a sense of responsibility, not one focusing only on his self-interest. More importantly, you have to break away from the restraints of Falun Gong if you want to see through the whole thing...

I deeply regretted that in the past, sticking obstinately to the wrong course of Falun Gong, I have repeatedly drifted off the normal course of my life. The cult marred my happiness and nearly ruined my future. Fortunately, I finally took an important step to completely break away from Falun Gong.

Source: http://www.chinafxj.cn/shal/201910/30/t20191030_24049.shtml