"The sun goes down but will still climb up tomorrow morning; the flowers wither but will still bloom next year; the beautiful bird of my youth is gone and will never come back..." What a cheerful song! But it hurts me so much to listen to it now...
My name is Yang Xiaoming. I’m 40 years old, still single now. I was once a cheerful, simple, and happy girl with loving parents and siblings. After graduation from high school, I landed a well-paying and stable job smoothly. However, my life had changed completely from what it used to be after I came across the evil cult of Falun Gong.
One day in July 1996, during the summer vacation of my sophomore year of high school, I came into contact with Falun Gong because of curiosity and herd mentality. Since I went to junior high school, I had been in the habit of doing morning exercises, not because I was in poor health, but only because I wanted to keep fit. Since Falun Gong claimed to be able to dispel diseases, keep people fit, and teach us to be kind people with "truthfulness, compassion, and forbearance," I gradually replaced my morning exercises with Falun Gong practice. Because I was a school student, I had little time to "study the Fa" and read Zhuan Falun. Now I’m glad that I didn’t get too deeply involved in the evil cult at that time, which enabled me to complete my schooling smoothly and get a decent job after graduation.
After completing my schooling, I had time to practice Falun Gong and study the “Fa”. Under the influence of Li Hongzhi's heretical fallacies, I went further and further down the path of the Falun Gong cult, and my purpose of practicing gong changed from keeping fit and being a kind person to pursuing "consummation.” To achieve the purpose, I became a devout disciple and did everything as required by Falun Gong. Even after Falun Gong had been banned by the government according to law, I still went out to practice it and even traveled to Beijing to "protect the Fa” there. Ignorantly, I believed in Li Hongzhi's claim that "clarifying the truth” was a compassionate way to “save all sentient beings," not knowing that it was a lie fabricated by Li Hongzhi and his Falun Gong cult organization. Therefore, I became one of Li Hongzhi's cat’s paws.
In March 2016, when my family tried once again to persuade me to quit Falun Gong, I regarded them as demons aimed at destroying Dafa. During the repeated conflicts with my family, I looked inward and felt that I didn’t do well enough as I still hadn’t let go of my fundamental attachments. The examples of some practitioners’ extreme actions published on the Falun Gong website constantly came to my mind and moved me to tears. I wondered whether I should follow their examples. Finally, I made up my mind to go on hunger strike. My initial intention was to express my firm stance, put pressure on my family, and deter the "evil", so I didn’t eat food or drink water. My family was unable to persuade me to stop the hunger strike, so they forced me to take a little liquid milk and cereal every day to keep me alive. However, I refused to comply with them, so my health got worse and worse, with my head dizzy, limbs weak, and eyes wandering. Even so, I still resisted medical treatment. Sometimes when I leaned against the wall and, my eyes turned black suddenly, making me feel that my life might be coming to an end. I didn’t want to open my eyes, thinking that if my life was over it would be fine with me as I would be freed from all encumbrances. But after I regained my consciousness, I refused that thought. “No, I can't die! I must live until the day when the Fa-rectification ends,” I said in my mind. As my urge to live increased, I seemed to have acquired a little more strength.
When I finally recovered from medical treatment and saw my family members, I remained insensitive and indifferent to them. The only thing that came to my mind then was Li Hongzhi's words: "What truly constitutes your life is your soul, so only the mother who gave birth to your soul counts as your true mother. You will have had countless ‘mothers,’ both human and otherwise, over the course of your reincarnations.” These heresies destroyed all my emotions. At that time, I would shed tears and comfort my parents, but I didn’t do it for the sake of my family affection, but to maintain my image as a "kind person" and avoid leaving the impression that I abandoned my parents to practice Falun Gong and thus brought discredit to Dafa. Eventually, I had to eat food, not for my parents or myself, but just to stay alive and continue to "protect the Fa.”
With the help of anti-evil-cult volunteers, I finally recognized the true nature of Li Hongzhi and his Falun Gong cult, waking up completely from the Falun Gong nightmare. Only then did I realize that what I had lost couldn’t be recovered. If I hadn't learned Falun Gong, I would have got married, had children, and lived a happy and prosperous life with a comfortable and decent job. The evil cult of Falun Gong is indeed harmful! When I was 17 or 18, I was unprepared, simple-minded, and still hazy in my understanding of the world. It was my belief in Falun Gong that had made me go astray and had my human nature distorted and my soul degenerated. What Falun Gong brought to me was a nightmare that had haunted me for 20 years.
Li Hongzhi and his Falun Gong led me to the path of self-harm and suicide, turned me into a cold-blooded, indifferent person with no affection, and wasted twenty years of my youth. Fortunately, with the help of the help-and-education staff, I finally came to my senses. When I reflected on myself, I found the reason for my extreme behavior of going on hunger strike in disregard of life was that I fell under the spiritual control of Li Hongzhi and his Falun Gong cult. No matter what I thought, said, or did in the past, I always took the heretical fallacies of Falun Gong as the only criterion, following the lead of Li Hongzhi. Thus I lost my normal thinking, reason, and emotions, making ridiculous and terrible acts.
I’d like to warn people through my experience to stay away from all evil cults and avoid being deceived and poisoned by an evil cult as I was!
